May 2013
11 posts
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what does serving size even mean anyway
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Me: At the co-op five minutes before closing, holding ice cream and looking desperately for a vegan oatmeal cream pie that has like 1000 calories
Cute guy behind the baked goods counter: Are you looking for anything in particular?
Me: No *walks away*
YA but I don’t want to talk about it, OK.
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Aftermath
He walked over to the couch and laid beside me; his proximity closer than it ever had been. We laid facing each other and after a moment, he inched his face closer to mine. I did not react; glad that it was too dark to see his dazzling eyes. He moved a bit closer and gently cupped my face with his hand. Then, with showing hesitance, he pulled my face to close the remaining space between our lips....
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Time Unknown
Blood jokes and endless nights don’t stop
They have yet to meet a partner
Show them around; bottom and top
For endless to become longer
To never know what we’re to do
Liquid water always noticed
Wide eyed faces, to this were new
The jump calling them to focus
Wait by and by to plan events
The desert sky is left without
A breath to blow through our two cents
No one else...
April 2013
2 posts
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The West Side of Grand Slam
I knew
When you flew above me
You danced to the beat of your spirit
Your body soaring
Your eyes seeing things
No eyes could revisit
I knew from your cries
That you were calling out to those sights
I knew that I loved you because you were alive
I never wanted to touch you;
There was nothing I could offer you
but so much you could offer me
With you against the green,
you were part of...
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March 2013
3 posts
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I Don't Have You
I don’t have a relationship
I have a pond
That’s as deep as Pend Oreille,
As sparkling as the eyes of a child
And in it, I see me.
I don’t have a commitment
I have an obsession
That’s as bad as a blade,
As true as the rain
And as heavy as the darkest cloud.
I don’t have desire,
I have emotion
That’s as orderly as a hurricane,
As hopeful as death...
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Tonight and Every Other
A ship can’t sink,
If it’s already sunk,
Can’t go any deeper,
Than the depths of the ocean floor;
That’s as low as it goes,
- As low as it will go.
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“She came to terms with emptiness.”
— 6-Word Story #2
February 2013
5 posts
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Night Wall
We know what it means
To say a dream is just a dream
And even if it is,
Even if it isn’t
Just a dream
It’s just a dream
Even if it seems
To hold something
Else, it doesn’t
You keep asking
Is it just a dream?
It doesn’t seem like it
Tearing me apart at the seams
Is this dream
That I think so hard to think
Is just a dream
That’s all it is
I have no control on what I see
A dressed up scene...
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“He began to love saying goodbye.”
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He used to pick flowers instead of arguments, but now it’s 5 a.m. and my feet are cold
And as he’s neither here nor there,
The need to try isn’t either
But the 5 words I couldn’t say were, “I’m getting off this ride.”
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Happened
I’m still
Still like this surreal part of today
Expand everything, by breaking it down
I’ve spent the day
Sent it on
Wasted it,
You were wasted
We wasted
away.
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I Keep Thinking
I keep thinking you’re an angel
But then I remember
That you don’t believe in God
But how can that be, when
Everything
About
You
Is so heavenly…
And you always say,
“Oh my God.”
January 2013
3 posts
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Soon
Hillsides somehow say, “Hello,”
Greeting the inevitable sun
Coming to know what we’ve begun
Coming after lightning’s struck
Inquiries refraining,
“Please, please, please let me…”
Let me read into that
Let me go somewhere
Let me sleep
Our slumbers so affected
Because of so that we adore
We don’t know who anymore
For this setting, hushed and limber
Our place...
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The Model Pt. 2
His lips accepted mine softly. The alcohol was heavy on my breath, on my tongue but it didn’t seem to bother him. I wondered if he’d ever tasted alcohol before. We sat knee to knee, inclining forward, kissing hesitantly. It was hesitant, but delicious with the curiosity of a first kiss. I was surprised that he seemed to want this as much as my drunken subconscious did. And so the...
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Holding
To talk about this burning
Burning that has no words
Takes over every sentiment and sense in and through me
Pulls me down into an ocean, free of salt, dense with the water current
It falls miles deep,
The floor is velvet underneath my feet
Every grain of sand replaced by a flower petal
The sun has an overwhelming presence so near the seabed
Casting through it warmth so sublime –...
November 2012
1 post
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Stay Full
A burning I have yet to see
It’s only ever been described to me well enough to know what it means
But it’s not there anymore
That pale look of burnt out eyes, the still
.
.
Replaced with .
Of the winter to come?
Well.
And what that comes with it?
The shriveling; from grapes to raisons
Who know how it is
Struggle to hold on
To every bit of breath left
But...
July 2012
3 posts
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Dismiss
I’d like nothing more than a bottle right now
Of a liquid to blaze when it’s traveling down
A drink to numb fragile lips with its kiss
And fade attention from such concurrent this
I’d like nothing more than a cigarette now
For its burn to relax and inhale to allow
That over-the-edge that will come with such force
Waiver the ledge and the line and the source
I’d like nothing more than to sleep at...
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The One I Don't Get
I kneeled against the bottom edge of the toilet, my arms resting along the cold seat as my head hung heavily over the water. I watched as the vomit came out of my mouth and mixed gradually with the water. The neutral colors and textures swirled slowly like a fog; vodka and crackers. I took another second to notice that the toilet seemed relatively clean, which I really appreciated. After waiting...
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Fight
“What is your problem?” I said, trying to refrain from yelling. We had two friends on the other side of the door and I felt that problems, especially stupid ones, should be kept between the two of us. “Get out of my way.” He said trying to push past me, his eyes diverted from my face. “Stop!” I said and I put my arm out onto his shoulder to hold him back. He...
June 2012
1 post
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January 2012
2 posts
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Listen
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From His POV
The five words you couldn’t say,
Were just, “I want you to stay.”
Were words I sought to find some warmth
From the cold feelings you put forth.
Into your eyes, I feel me falling
They’re stone and hard, with weight I’m hauling
Of all this trust and all this care
To have returned with a blank stare.
Her crooked hands, her jaundiced skin
And all her other flaws...
December 2011
1 post
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Driving
30
50
40
60
and I wait.
I think of life and the things I hate.
I close my eyes, letting go of the wheel
Trying to differentiate what’s fake and what’s real.
I open them, and there’s nothing to feel.
I close them again, and wait and expect
More and more nothing couldn’t be more direct
All of my actions lack cause and affect
I wish there would be something more...
November 2011
4 posts
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My Favorite Lines
My page was too white
My ink was too thin.
The day wouldn’t write
what the night pencilled in.
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Not Making It, Faking It.
October flew by as the cold wind blew high toward the new winter season. Caused an avalanche that has no given time and no given reason. Tears from passing by years fall slow, freeze feet from the floor. It’s not yet to drop from the sins that are shot into us and lay heavy and hurt. So they keep from the dirt that’s frozen in place for the oncoming months that are hiding their face...
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My Friend
I’m not as pretty as I used to seem After all the things that’ve come between You and I, our friends and lies. Tired thoughts around you, the haze of our friendship leaving traces and reminders of us at all times, in all places Your eyes hold anger that your lips hide so well like how I hate her, but I’d never tell The feel with you so bitter your aim so high to get her. High...
October 2011
3 posts
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The Model
He stared down at my hand, his deep blue eyes lingering on my finger that was tracing unsteady circles into the back of his hand. His chocolate brown lashes blinked slowly and uncertainly. I looked down at our hands that were intertwined in a pinky promise, his dark, warm skin contrasting interestingly with my lighter olive skin. I glanced back up at his face to see his eyes closed, his face still...
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Admiration
I saw him unexpectedly my heart beating erraticaly his face tired and somber His life speaking out with his eyes his thoughts bleeding out of his steps He didn’t really look at me But it was still nice to look in his diverted eyes A good person where none can be found meeting ends with the world and paying dues for nothing done wrong. A happy boy with endless saddening troubles excited for...
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September 2011
1 post
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Some Time Alone
We were in way over our heads, I think
as the thoughts rip to shreds
with you coming near.
We took things too fast
when the beauty of our past
came back so suddenly.
Our warm night walks,
through the rivers we crossed
led to such breath-taking moments,
we couldn’t help but notice.
Under the bridge it sounds like thunder
but it’s louder than thunder, all the thoughts that I...
August 2011
1 post
1 tag
Release.
Im feeling lonely with you around. I shouldnt be writing about you. You know what kind of person you are. Not allowed to do this. You’re so wrong. Feeling so wrong. Im closing my eyes and seeing you. This poison running thick inside me. Past the airless blood in my veins. Behind my closed, bright lids. Steadily beating the pictures clear. My skin coming off so strong. Falling apart at the...
July 2011
4 posts
My Personal Jigsaw Puzzle: Faded Memories →
karadikid:
We once walked this shore.
Footprints trailed behind us in the sand.
I thought the path we made would never end.
This was the story of our lives.
Sandy beaches, tidal waves.
But then the sand turned to gravel.
And soon gravel turned to rock.
I went my way, and you would eventually go…
The Reason
In sequestered chambers lie
An expectation for demise
And from these expectations come
A feeling to want to be done
For if worser pain should come to happen
Desire would not leave me broken
I know its a lousy and selfless excuse
I just dont want to have someone to lose
I know that we need it, I know that I must
But I really cant stand out and balance on trust
A fall is too likely and...
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The Thought of You
You drive me crazy, and not in a good way.
Im sorry that you cant take a hint.
Im sorry that time after time I told you things wouldnt work out, it wasnt clear enough for you.
Im now realizing quite a bit about the whole situation though.
I do miss you.
I do want you.
I do love you.
The thought of you.
You say it yourself, you’re a different person now.
You’re not the same...
June 2011
4 posts
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What Could Have Been
I can think of nothing that pains my heart more, than happy memories, and visions of what could have been.
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Afternoon Dreams
Im in a place I shouldnt be
nevermore there, its closed to me
hearing talk, not for my ears
for im not there, like in past years
so I leave this place, to a similar other
And im held by a boy, that i know isnt mine
and he twirls me around, with strong adoration
while im looking off for my known combination
as i find his face, hardly seen through the crowd
he’s smiling and laughing...
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Im Really Sorry
I dont know what I do
to make me wanted by you
we just talk and talk
and our eyes quickly lock
as the distance between us never decreases
the safeness of our friendship teases
the undisclosed desires there
with every smile and laugh we share
but it all stays the same
and its really fucking lame
because all I can say is im sorry
and im sorry
and im sorry
and im so so sorry.
May 2011
5 posts
3 tags
The First Messages
XBrandonX{FMO} says:
Hey whats up
what did i miss in history?
Shelly says:
absolutely nothing. not even a crossword. we just sat there. doing whatever.
why werent you there?
<3 fuck myspace.
